Brutal

Brutal I want it to be, like, messy I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I, if not exploited? And I'm so sick of seventeen Where's my fuc*** teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth," I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (Ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah) I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (Ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah) (Just havin' a really good time) Got a broken ego, broken heart (Yeah, it's brutal out here, yeah, it's brutal out here) And God, I don't even know where to start