I Still Want To

I Still Want To Tell me we're fake in love I didn't make this up Trippin' on every word you said Am I out of focus And what was your motive Talkin' that bullshit to your friends This isn't confidence Maybe it kind of is I know it's fuc*** up either way Did I ever have you Or was it a half truth Leaving you burned into my brain Now I can try to face it But when we're face to face it changes If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to I thought it'd be better but this is real life Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to I keep saying it's worthless A pain with a purpose Was keeping it real but somehow got it wrong But it doesn't matter It's already shattered I guess I'm ok with being strung along Now I can try to face it But when we're face to face it changes If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to I thought it'd be better but this is real life Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to Yeah, I still want to Made a mess of all of this Blissful in my ignorance Thinking it was permanent But I still want to If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to In my head it'd be better but this is real life Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell It's deja vu I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to